-no stop, completely
wisely done to sever these strings
connected once i was to [dear lord air bags boom] thought but a cloven
mind cannot think with two heads arguing dreams, how the chimera
manages three i guess a common hunger but paucity it seems is all i
know. below, the feet working pedals, left rudder hard brake to corner
stone;
severed like ties, no with knife to tongue i speak only divided,
query results
these are the days that shall pass in quotidian sorrow, wretched
obduration against a jester’s supplications, spent emoticons,
drive-ins, handed things and memories purchased to be consumed alone
and wondering how all that’s been said so much, so little
the city uttered words like the king in a cowering tower “tow-ard” a
towering coward of moral indignity, no in spring time do not-forget-me
or forget-me-nots all bunched in a room [it's not you, it's me] or
wait, reverse, heart break, in spring time rains can flood this town
of winking shoes treading water
miles you’ve
driven me away
more daunting
between two cities, distance, unfathomable distance to make thoughts
like God when speaking to a man and his ark, bring forth two and doves
coo babble talk, was art ever more artless than this, to
make light of one’s own wept-tune, ridiculed cannot trust
this side of venus burns hotter than the other and did you know that
the leaves on fire from what i’ve thought to make this all make sense,
why else this aborted dream. november heartbeats away and then [dear
lord them again] the ageless find solace. if so, if so, then tell you
something new — i’m the last train by, undocked my luggage and poof was
never here, easy to say i’m just a dream in between your daily life,
from whence i came this is i, this is good
bye, my eye broken, leaks all the
time
[Original Post Date: 10/06/2004]
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Weird finding old shit and still knowing exactly what created it, and all the same ashamed for having writ this junkie stream-o (stream-of-consciousness emo), but somehow awkwardly proud yet knowing / owing to packet maturation that nothing like this can ever claim to be future progeny. Oh well. Oh hell.